Notes

How often is your mind worrying about problems, reliving unpleasant experiences that continue to haunt you, or imagining a potential future that may never happen?

Anything that can happen can only happen now.
So if you want some change, now is the place to be.

Maybe the ego is like the one ring in Lord Of The Rings.
Some of the characters believe that they can harness its power for good.
But the wise characters know it will consume whoever tries.
"Do Not Tempt Me, Frodo!" - Gandalf The Grey

This is why I unconsciously compare myself with others.

There is a part of me that is afraid that I don't deserve to exist.

So it wants to find evidence to justify it's existence.

If it can find someone it perceives as inferior to me, then that can temporarily placate its fear.

"At least I am better than that guy! Phew..."

But eventually it always finds someone who it perceives as superior.

That really gets it going.

Now it needs to think of ways that I am actually somehow superior.

Maybe that person is secretly unhappy? Haha, I bet I am way happier than them!

But what if they are actually genuinely happy?

Well then, the only reason is that there is some unfair advantage that they possess over me. Its not fair. I have been poorly treated and so was not given a fair chance to compete...

I am a victim.

...

And on and on it goes... It is very interesting. Why can't it accept inferiority?

I think its because, according to it, to accept inferiority is to accept annihilation.

Books I've read so far in 2025. WIP

Books I'd read again:

• Another Self
• The Top Five Regrets of the Dying
• 嫌われる勇気
• The divided mind
• The way out
• A new earth
• The power of now
• Stillness speaks
• When the body says no
• The myth of normal
• Non violent communication
• Enlightenment is you nature

Books I probably wouldn't:

• Why woo-woo works
• Trauma-Sensitive Mindfulness
• Don't believe everything you think
• Sacred Rest